My weird and wonderful pas

When I came to university I started to have full time help. This was a huge adjustment for me. Even though I'd had P.As at home before this, it was very different because I was at home and didn't have to manage it all by myself. I often resent how much time it takes to organise rotas, sort out payroll and manage 5 or 6 people. It is not something that anyone wants to have. It has however given me lots of freedom that I didn't have before. I have always made it a priority that my pas know that I want people who will respect and carry out my choices free of judgement and that this is central to the way that I have my help. I don't think many people understand how it feels to not have complete control over your adult life and to have other people involved in your personal care and other daily tasks. I know from experience that the way that my support is carried out majorly influences how I feel about having it. I am and have been incredibly lucky with the P.As that I've had and currently have and I am very grateful for that. They are some of my closest friends and I have met so many lovely people through this role and I hope they know how much I appreciate them. It's just that no one wants a stranger to give them a shower and whenever I have a change in PAs this is my reality.